My Tribe

Women who effortlessly exude the perfect balance of delicate vulnerability and ferocity.  Women whose bullshit tolerance is low and need to tell-it-like-it-is remains at a constant high.  Self-made and independent, but always mindful of the importance of a strongly woven net of relationships.  The movers, the shakers, the doers.  Women who talk the talk, walk the walk, and can do both simultaneously.  The goal-diggers who dream big with their head in the clouds, but keep their feet a sensible distance from the ground.  Women who refuse to live in fear, but rather, through it.  The women whose daily actions demonstrate that truly, 'she believed she could, so she did'.  Women who love hard and selflessly, but not carelessly.  Women who might have been torn down before, but cannot be destroyed.

This describes the tribe of women I am surrounded by, friends who inspire and empower me on a daily basis.  And for that, I am so thankful.

HERE WE GO AGAIN

I've kept some kind of blog since my freshman year of college.  Xanga was all the rage back then, and once I graduated from UCI, I also graduated myself from Xanga to Blogger, where I stayed loyal through my post-college move to San Diego.  When I felt it was time to move back home and start the grad school/credential process, I retired my blogging life.

I've tried to stay consistent in my writing, while not on an internet platform, although I can't say with confidence that I have succeeded.  I write when I feel as though the words flow easy, when I feel as though I have something "good" to say.  I realize now that just like anything else we are passionate about, writing takes practice, patience, and unrelenting honesty.  Sometimes, I think I avoid writing things down because there's a sense of totality that comes along with it.  If there's no record of it, I can pretend that it didn't happen, or that I don't feel a certain way.  It's a gross game of pretend that I play with myself, and frankly, it's self-deprecating and unhealthy.

So here I am.

I've made resolutions in Januarys of past to write more frequently.  This year, I want to stop being scared.  I want to be able to write freely, but more importantly, to write bravely.  I want to share my words, whether it be to entertain people, to provide insight, perspective, or as a vehicle for killing boredom.  I'm putting myself out there.

I've tried to consider a primary focus for this blog, but as I'm a complex person with many different parts that make up my life, I don't think it would be fair to limit myself here.  Obviously, some information will be withheld for personal caution, but I hope this blog will cover most of what is most important in my life.  It will include archived pieces I've written, commentary on new experiences, a lot of self-reflection, and whatever else I feel I want to document.  Most importantly, this blog will grow with me as I continue on this journey through growing up.

Hello, world.